Well, the light at the end of my undergraduate tunnel is shinning brightly, belated being better than never.
Of course, my “extra” time spent at MTSU has given me more time to grow, but boy oh boy, have I traveled down some bizarre routes.
“When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known” (1 Corinthians 13:11-12, ESV).
I am writing this to help myself more than anyone else, this time, but I am sharing it online because I believe that hearing each other’s stories, no matter how seemingly vain (the work is to the author), helps us all, or at least someone else, in one way or another.
I have searched for God in the darkest of places, and though He was not there hiding under any rock or crevice that I had expected to find him near, He showed up for me.
I tried to run from a life with Christ; I tried to hide. Now is not the time to (try to) explain why I chose that, for a spell). I was curious that He might be elsewhere, in a different set of beliefs, that maybe there is no objective truth.
He was right where they, in the Bible, said He was, and is, and always will be.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes, shamed myself, and hurt people close to me, but by God’s grace I am alive again, still erring, but being sanctified one cell at a time.
So, if you’re reading this, and you don’t know me very well (which is almost everyone who will read this), or haven’t known me for awhile, I am both nothing new, and yet totally new, simultaneously. I am nothing new, in that I love my roots, in Middle Tennessee, small-town living, but I am totally new in that I wish to seek His face more than ever.
I’m married now and still in school. There are so many paths we could take, Linli and I, and we are doing our best to please Him first, and then our loved ones, friends, and neighbors. So, we’re off to Memphis in August, it seems, so that I might study at Harding School of Theology, to seek His truth in more depth, so that I might be more than fully equipped to live a life here or there, in the States or in China, to wherever He calls us.
Lord lead us and lead whoever finds themselves reading this. I pray for you, reader, to find peace wherever you are, in whatever life situation may find yourself.
May our lives serve His purposes, to the praise of His glorious grace, and may we also forgive others as we have also been forgiven through the blood of Jesus Christ.